Wednesday, August 24, 2016

I can feel it in the air.

I am chatting today...would you join me?

I can feel it in the air.  Fall.
Mornings are chilly and in the evenings
I open the windows to let the cool breeze flow into Fox Hill.
The evenings poolside are becoming less frequent and that makes me sad, 
but the mountains are beginning to pop with color and that makes me so happy!
Today during lunch, Lottie and I discussed what
 she is going to be for Halloween...still undecided.

My body has been achy lately, and I think its because the weather is changing.
My fingers hurt and my skin feels tight.  
Sometimes I feel claustrophobic in my own skin, especially when
it feels so tight that it hurts to walk and move or even get out of bed.
Thank goodness for my children.
It's important that I am present in their lives which forces me to move so I can
care for them and their needs-- even when I don't think I can.
They encourage, inspire, and support me and 
they don't even know they are doing it.
So that works out pretty great

Tuesday, August 23, 2016

First Kiss: 16 years ago

Sometimes I read my old journals.  
They are hilarious and stupid but kind of cute too.

Wednesday, August 23, 2000:
"Today was the best day of my life.  Christian kissed me!  
Finally FINALLY!  After a lovely evening drive in the convertible, 
we pulled into the driveway and all of a sudden he said:
 "Stephanie close your eyes".  Then he put his hands on my cheeks 
and pulled me close to him and he KISSED ME!!! (Then I drew about 400 hearts).
"It was SOOOOOOOOOOOOO wonderful and absolutely perfect. 
Like, this kiss should be in a movie it was that amazing 
and so ROMANTIC, now if he will just ask me to marry him". (Smiley face).  
"Then we finally got out of the car and he walked me to my door, 
but before I went inside, he grabbed me at the waist and we kissed again.
I seriously felt weak in my knees.  That's a real thing!"
 (Then I drew about 35 more hearts).
"He told me he had wanted to do that for so long, 
and he couldn't wait any longer.
I don't think he realizes how long I HAVE BEEN WAITING for that moment.
Can't wait to do it again tomorrow....and I hope forever."
* * * * 
 Christian and I got engaged almost a month later on September 30th, 2000.
We were married on December 16th, 2000.
Claire was born on October 29th, 2001.
When you know, you know.

(And that photo is pretty sweeeeeeet).

Monday, August 22, 2016


After the Little Nies head off to school,
 Lottie and I have the house to ourselves.
Sometimes we play with her ponies and unicorns, 
or sometimes I get out all of her paints and crayons and she colors
 while I clean up the breakfast mess.
OR, her absolute favorite is when I sit down 
and we play the memory game together.
I had some of our favorite family photos made into an awesome memory card set.
Charlotte could seriously play infinite rounds if I let her.
We had a wonderful weekend.  It was really hard getting the
Little Nies up for school this morning. 
A new week always bring so much emotions 
both good and bad.  
I love these quite slow mornings with Lottie.
 I don't know what I am going to do when she
is in kindergarten next year. 
 Makes me sick to even ponder on it, so I won't.
I love being a mother.