Today I got a text from Claire with a photo of
her and Nate in their backyard in Mesa.
As it turns out, I was wearing THE SAME OUTFIT as she was
seventeen years ago, in Mesa while visiting Christian's sister,
Charity's graveside, almost to the DAY in 2008!!!!!
That skirt is still going strong.
Here I am with Christian's sisters, parents, and
my little dude Gigs behind me with bleached blonde hair.
I felt a little homesick for those days.
In nearly 3 months, my life would completely change.
It's unfathomable.
I look at myself here in this picture, and I look so happy with my healthy body
from teaching yoga, slender neck, freckles, cute hair,
super busy, happy life in Mesa with 4 little children, and I want to yell,
"Just don't get in the plane!!!"
But then a bigger part of me wants to just hug
her and tell her that it's all going to work out, and I love her
and what she's going to overcome and face, and how it will
change so many lives and teach resilience and growth.
The truth is, some days I wish I hadn't gotten on the plane,
but the reality is, I did, and I am proud of who
I am, and what I went through to fight for a happy life.







































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