I just wanted to let you all know (just in case you were wondering)
living with 9 fingers isn't that big of a deal.
I mean, I feel self-conscious a lot, but whatever, a missing finger
is hardly what people look at when they are looking at me, you know?
Sometimes I forget, for example:
ME: "Lottie, we are leaving in 5 minutes."
then I hold up my hand 4 fingered hand.
Or sometimes I say to the Little Nies or the kids I teach in church
ME: "High-five me."
Then they look at me and say
"You mean high 4 you?".
Or sometimes, I still think it's there, and I try and hang
my purse straps on my crooked pinkie, like I used to.
Oh, then there is the blasted phantom pain.
Sometimes it really aches, or I feel super sharp pains.
Or sometimes I go to itch it- that feels weird, you know, because
it's not there anymore.
I am on some nerve medication that
(I think) is helping me get that pain under control.
It hurts to touch it or to clap, but I'm pretty sure that will all
go away with time.
Mr. Nielson tells me a joke and teases me about it every day, and
it never gets old, and I laugh probably 90% of the time.
Get it? 90% of the time?
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