Friday, October 13, 2017

It just wasn't me.


 Ten days ago while I was making dinner I felt it:
a cold sore right on the left side of my big fat bottom lip.
I called Mr. Nielson right away (he happened 
to be in town getting groceries for us).
"HONEY" I texted "I FEEL A COLD SORE COMING ON, SEND RELIEF!!!!"
Just as I suspected, the next morning, my cold sore had broken through.
It was huge and painful, and every time a child would scream
 or fight, I would feel it throb as if it had it's own heartbeat.
These stupid sores are directly connected to stress, 
and I have felt stressed lately.  
This evening I got in the car and drove into town
 just me, myself, and my cold sore.
When I got to the parking lot I directly
 walked into the store with my head down.
I felt out of sorts and I didn't even feel like smiling.

I noticed something about half way through my shopping experience.
This wasn't me, I don't shy away from others, and
 avoid eye contact with people.  This really just wasn't me.
I started to feel disappointed in myself.
  I must have seen over a hundred different people;
mothers, fathers, children, grandpas, grandmas, teenagers, and families.
I didn't make eye contact with any of them.
I realized something else: people will stare at me no matter where I go,
what I am wearing, or if I have a cold sore or not.
And I have noticed when I look directly at people and smile,
 I feel better about myself. I feel more approachable and confident,
 my heart opens and I am able to share and feel light.
But I think best of all, I feel real genuine love for everyone.

"When we open ourselves to the Spirit, we learn God's way
and feel His will." -Neill F. Marriott 


Today is a very special day, do you know why?
It's October, Friday the 13th!!!!!!!!!! 
SpOoOoOOooOOOokY!

Spiritual Enlightenment: Yielding Our Hearts to God