Wednesday, May 02, 2012

Swinging and sleeping.

I woke up suddenly last night.
Charlotte hadn't cried to wake me up like she has been doing in the past.
I looked out my window and noticed the sky was going from black to dark blue.
The birds were chirping.
Still, Charlotte hadn't woken me up.
I was so worried, and I panicked.
I jumped out of bed and ran to her little bassinet at the foot of my bed.
I put my head close to her chest and listened to her breathing.
Steady. Up and down. Up and down.
I looked at the clock. It was a quarter to five.
I had slept wonderfully, and so had she.
It was such a welcomed gift.
But I couldn't go back to sleep. I was thinking.
I was thinking about all the things
I want and need to do.

Later that morning, I was interviewed on a Seattle talk show about my book
(via phone, did anyone hear it?!)
Then I spoke to the producer of a popular show in New York.
The Nielson crew will be on a few shows in NYC these coming weeks.
I will let you know the times and the shows later. Oh boy!!

Then I got in the shower and got dressed.
I put my jeans on for the first time.
Happy they fit but frustrated that my body is still not quite up to the
tasks I so badly want to do.
I need to be patient.
I had a baby and major surgery not even a month ago.

I talked to my sister Courtney, at her house this afternoon
who said to let it all go.
Forget about expectations and just relax.
I listened to her- thankfully.
I went home, lay on the couch, and fell asleep.
I didn't do one thing I wanted to get done today.
And it was OK.

I woke up from my blissful nap and got up from the couch
and saw Mr. Nielson swinging on the
swing outside the window with Charlotte.
It was such a darling sight.
He loves her so dearly, and I feel the love, too!
He has wanted nothing more for me than healing and has
expected that I take care of myself first.
Today that meant a nap, and he knew it.

So he took his new girlfriend on the swing to let mommy sleep.

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