Monday, December 21, 2020

Joy

 Today our family was able to attend church in our building.
This is once a monthly occurrence for our family with the new covid protocols. 
 It's nice to go back and see our church family.
Today was extra special since it was the Christmas program.  
Beautiful music and inspired words were shared-- in very covid creative ways.
  It was truly a gorgeous day. 
 But the best part of the program for me was the last
musical arraignment by our friend, Brian, who played on the piano Joy
 (Jesu Joy Of Mans Desiring) which is a George Winston/Bach arrangement.  
This is so so special to my heart because it reminds me of 
Topher who would play this song on the piano at Christmastime
 for as long as I can remember.
I was so touched and sad at the same time, and 
 I could barely hold it together. Christan held me while 
I was overcome with emotions.
I miss him- especially during this time of year- I miss him so much.
After church, Christian and I visited a friend who lost her teenage son.
This time of year is so joyous and magical, but 
can also be so lonely and heartbreaking.
Today I felt that heartache with her as she told us beautiful stories
about her son, and I thought about Topher.
But I felt overwhelmed with gratitude as I thought about the
Savior of the world who is the truest and brightest light in my life.
And we celebrate His birth because He brings us hope and joy,
and the promise of reuniting with those who've passed on.

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"What shall we give to the babe in the manger,
What shall we offer the child in the stall?
Incense and spices and gold we've a-plenty-
Are these the gifts for the king of us all?
What shall we give to the lamb who was offered,
Rising the third day and shedding his love?
Tears for his mercy we'll weep at the manger,
Bathing the infant come down from above."