Monday, March 21, 2016

Climbing Back

I have been cleaning out my basement.  
It's fun but will probably take me five hundred weeks at the rate I'm going.
I start going through a box and then get extremely distracted by its contents 
and then I find myself sitting down and looking through everything.
Yesterday I looked through thousands of get well cards that were sent
to me in the hospital when I was in my coma. 
I read through a few of them but had to stop because I was crying so hard.
So many emotions, so much pain and so much gratitude all in one sitting.
It was hard.  I'll try again later.
Then I saw a CD that read "Climbing Back".  
I took the disc upstairs and put it in my computer.  
On the disc were photos of me and my family August 2009.
The Arizona Republic (Jamiee Rose & Cheryl Evans) came to 
Utah to photograph and write a story about me one year after my accident. 
These photos were of me interacting with my children and family and 
my epic hike to the Y.  Then I came across this sweet photo of me and Ollie.  
I remember this night because after I lay him down for
 bed and he asked if I'd lay near him.  
He slipped his little arm through mine and fell asleep.  
You will never know the hardship it was to connect again my children.  
It seemed like one step forward and thirty steps back. 
I relished in any attention my children would give me.  
I was willing and excited to do anything for them- change a diaper,
wipe a nose, wash or clean- I would read the newspaper to them if they'd let me. 
These days were so very hard but they also have a very special little place
tucked away in my heart and I hope I never forget.
I'm proud of where I am and who I have become along the way.