Blob

 

Jane has been working double time since I stopped 

instructing at the studio last June.

She picked up most of my classes and my front desk shifts.

I am so grateful for her.

She comes home in the evenings, and she and Lottie make dinner together. 

because I stay out of the kitchen as much as I can.

Man, pregnancy plays with so many emotions, and being so sick

has made me feel like a useless blob.

It's been hard watching Christian and Jane do all the work

at the studio when I had dedicated so much time there before I got pregnant.

It's been hard feeling aloof in Lottie's life, too.

I know God has a plan for our family and me, and I trust His timing,

and I KNOW I am supposed to have this baby right now.

It's just some days I feel so guilty and I don't know what to 

do with those feelings and emotions.

Then later, while Christian was out ministering to families in church,

she and Lottie made soup and bread.

I was so grateful, it actually tasted really good!

...
I think this baby is coming soon.

I feel it.