(Can you spot the pregnancy test?)
For the past few days, I have been waking up feeling nauseous. Really nauseous!
I've only felt this way when I'm pregnant, so I was a little
sus, when I actually had the thought to take a pregnancy test.
But it would all make sense; why I'm so sick, especially in the morning, why
I hate going to the studio because it smells bad (even though it doesn't),
and why am I so exhausted and irritable?
I attended a funeral this morning for a member of our congregation, and while I sat
there, I felt like I was going to throw up. I left early and took
myself to a Walgreens where I bought two pregnancy tests, came home,
and peed on the stick.
Almost immediately, two lines appeared.
No.
No.
No.
It can't be. I thought my body was going in a completely different direction.
I thought that with missed/unreliable periods beginning earlier this year,
I was entering my premenopausal phase. I'm 43. It kind of would make sense.
But still, after taking BOTH tests, I felt perhaps
I was looking at false-positive tests.
I've heard about those happening with premenopausal women, yes, sometimes this
happens. I mean, that sounded a little more believable than me getting
pregnant, besides, I couldn't recall when Christian and I were not careful.
For the last 25 years, we have had babies when we planned them, and
haven't had any issues with that before.
Excuse the bluntness, but this baby would have
literally slid in without us even noticing.
I called Christian, who was still at the funeral, in panic tears,
He answered the phone,
"Hey, I'm just cleaning up, can I-" I interrupted him,
"I think I'm pregnant."
Silence.
Then he said, "Whoa, wait, you were on speaker phone, what did you say?"
"I was on SPEAKER PHONE? DID ANYONE HEAR?"
"No, I was just sweeping the floor and using my phone watch to talk, I
don't think anyone heard, but what did you even say...?"
Then I told him about my leaving the funeral early and going to Walgreens to
get a pregnancy test.
He told me not to jump to conclusions.
"It's probably just your hormones acting funny because you're body
is changing, I'm coming to get you."
Minutes later, I started walking to the gate when his truck came barreling
through. He stopped, I jumped in, and we drove to Walmart, where we bought
another pregnancy test. This time, a three-pack.
I used Walmart's bathroom (the first and only time I've done that).
Sure enough, two lines appeared quickly on the stick.
We looked at each other, and I cried. He smiled and hugged me.
Then I called our ER Dr friend and asked him for his very
secret medical opinion, he said to come into the hospital in a few days
while he's on call, he'd perform an ultrasound to assess the situation.
It could be an ovarian issue.
He said it's happened before.
I'm not 100% positive about being pregnant.
However, my body has ever misled me about this before.
I've only felt pregnant when I was actually pregnant.
So, I think I might be pregnant.
And my daughter is getting married in less than a month.
