Monday, November 01, 2010

Bending

What is happiness to you? 
Well, for me it was today when I dropped all the mail 
from the mailbox into the gutter.
 Then (here is the happiness part), KNEELING down to pick it up. 
I mean, after the accident, I couldn't for the life of me
 bend my knees to even walk, (enter C3PO). 
Honestly, I walked around with straight legs for a long time
because bending them was too painful.
 My skin was newly burned, newly grafted, and bending felt like I
 was being stabbed right at the knees with really sharp knives. 
 Sorry, but true. I cried a lot back then.
 But today as Mr. Nielson and I returned home from a very
 lovely meeting in Salt Lake,
 I checked the mailbox and grabbed the mail with my 
clumsy hands and fingers
 and dropped it all into the gutter. 
I scooped down to pick the Christmas catalogs and bills and shocked myself 
at just how far I was bending. So I yelled: 
"Hon, look at me. I mean, look at how far I am bending down!" 
It was a very big moment for me.  
I look at all these small victories as a pathway being paved for me to help me
 achieve the desires of my heart. 
 My heart wants a baby...or two or three and now I know 
that I can bend down to pick up a baby when he/she cries!!!
I worked hard to get here 
through therapy, exercising, falling down mountains
picking up toys, bathing kids, and riding my bike.
 And folks, that is what happiness is to me. 
Check out these wonderful snapshots that Justin Hackworth 
took at our First Annual Madsen Bike Rally last month!