Thursday, April 26, 2018

The perspective I choose

This morning I glanced in the local newspaper at the obituaries.
A beautiful face caught my attention.
A young beautiful face.
I sat down at my parent's sunny kitchen table and read a gorgeous
 reflection of a young mother who recently passed away from breast cancer.
My heart ached as I read. 
 I ached for her four young children, her parents, and siblings. 
 I felt for her friends and the many many people who
 she touched by her magnificent life.  
But mostly, I ached for her husband because now his
 companion and best friend is gone.
While reading her obituary, I discovered that 
Denise Neish had kept a blog during her years
of struggling with cancer.
 I spent most of my morning reading her beautifully written entries 
full of  wisdom beyond her years.
I was particularly touched and inspired when she said 
in her last post written on February 23rd:

"When I focus on the life of my Savior Jesus Christ, 
I give Him the opportunity to heal my spirit. 
He suffered both body and spirit, and therefore, 
is the only one who can truly know how I feel and what I need. 
When I think of Him I feel strengthened, happy,
 and even grateful and loved in a very real and tangible way.
I can look at life from the perspective that I have terminal cancer. 
I am not winning the battle, and there is nothing I can do about that, 
and I feel cheated of future time with my family. 
That is one perspective. The perspective I choose is: 
I have a happy marriage with a wonderful husband to whom 
I am sealed for eternity in the temple. I have four beautiful and happy
 children who are becoming just what I had hoped they would become.
 I feel confident in a happy after-life, and I know that eventually
my whole family will be there with me. I have friends and am shown
 love from others every single day. I am here right now,
 and I can do what I choose to do with my time. 
Out of those two true perspectives, that is the one I have chosen."
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I was grateful to feel uplifted and strengthened from a woman whom I 
have never even met.  I feel badly for feeling strong and grateful after
reading her words since those who love and cherish her are mourning her.

Thank you so much Denise for your perspective on life.

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Teachings from RMN:
Some of you may feel that life is busy and frenetic, 
yet down deep in your heart you feel a gnawing emptiness, 
without direction or purpose. Ask the missionaries! They can help you! 
They can help you to learn more about the true purpose 
of life—why you are here on earth and where you are going after death. 
You can learn how the restored gospel of Jesus Christ
 will bless your life beyond anything you can presently even imagine.